Why?

When i feel down, i feel lower than low, how can i fight the depression?

The sky is blue, the sun is shining, but still there is non stop oppression.

It must be something that i cant see, something much larger than me.

But how do i know if it's something i want, or if gone then something I'd see?

The child is smiling, he looks up at me, with food all over his face.

He now has a big grin, well into the future, as he is first in the race.

The pleasure we share is a bond between us, as i look at my son so proudly.

But how do i know if its something i want, or if gone then something I'd see?

People around me, they smile and laugh, and share in this moment of joy.

Who would have thought, that this day would come, well i did but i still act coy.

I touch on the truth as i share my tale, all of them rapt by my glee.

But how do i know if its something i want, or if gone then something I'd see?

I may be a ghost, but still on this world, alone in my bed surrounded.

Although it is close, i know in my bones, my family will be dumbfounded.

I left them a challenge to pass on forever, a goal to be all they could be.

Because now i know life is something i want, and without it then nothing I'll see.

I thought i would write this poem as, well, i honestly dont know why. It could be because a mate passed away 3 years ago with cancer. Or it could just be me finally facing how he might have been feeling when he passed, or how i am feeling now he is gone. Either way, he is a memory to me still, and many others. I know in the future his friendship will still be with me.

Dreaming

One day it will happen for the good of your heart,

but evil will lurk in the shadow.

Keep your mind open and traverse the turns,

And stay off the straight and narrow.

Fight the instinct to hide at will,

To surrender yourself to the night.

No one will come because no one cares,

If you survive or not your own plight.

You're in this forever 'til death has his day,

Screaming down further and further.

Running from horrors that play in your mind,

And forgetting about your own murder.

The light in your eyes is red from distance,

Pits of memories once been.

Who is to know what will happen next,

At least this was just a bad dream.

- I really wanted this to seem like there was no way out, to be in-coherent, yet making sense all at the same time. I feel like i succeeded in most ways, but i dont know if i captured the relief from waking up and realizing it was only a nightmare. Maybe I'll come back to this and end it differently one day.

Ode to the Faithful

Always a friend with a smile on her face, 

If you were throwing her ball or in a foot race.

Golden like sunshine with friendship to match,

A roll her on back so her tummy you'd scratch.

A looked after dog who love all she met,

She'd lick you to death if you would let.

Loyal and strong giving her love to all,

If it wasn't a stick then it would be a ball.

She'd greet you with kindness and stay by your side,

I swear if she could she'd give you a ride.

Sometimes she could be like a devil from Tazzie,

But we'll never forget her, our friend, our dear Razzie.

R.I.P - Shiraz. Our favourite Golden Lab.

If you were me?

Sometimes you sit in the full view of the crowd, 

While deep down inside you want to scream loud.

Other brief moments your silent and numb,

But project to the world your the meaning of fun.
 

No one can see you as you turn your mind in, 

As no one will notice when you're committing a sin.

Your thoughts and dreams scatter inside your head,

And sometimes you wonder if you'd be better of dead.
  

The light of the tunnel seems so far in distance,

What you decide now will always be different.

The claws in your thoughts hang on to the life,

And the wind whips your body as if its a knife.

You reach for the goal that seems never to be,

Struggling and pushing for your own destiny.

Laughter is something that never comes close,

You remember a time but feel like a ghost.

Turn to the sun and feel the daylight,

The people who care will want you to fight.

Extend yourself from the hole you have dug,

The embrace of someone is what's called a hug.

They are your rock and your reason to be,

Stop saying you're nobody and learn that you're me.

Individual you are and important to you,

If you were me what would you say to do?

Teddy Bear

I wish you were my Teddy Bear i had when i was three,

Because every night i went to bed he came to bed with me.

Young at Heart

It's your birthday,

So here's a card.

Twenty One years,

Was it that hard?

More years to come,

So have a great day.

But young in your heart,

Is where you should stay.

Unnecessary

Roses at random, from a guy who cares,

He tries to make you smile all day.

You dried them out, kept them at home,

For the next time that he went away.

He's given you more, lots of different types,

The last bunch was bigger than most.

But for all of these gifts, and all of the thoughts,

You be happy if he just made you toast.

Hello

Here's a hello,

From me to you,

To help you get through the day.

Take this poem,

And keep it with you,

Until a "Hello" in person i can say.

Breaking Up

Butterfly is my name for you, 

It's something i have always done.

It's funny it's silly i know all of this, 

But i also think it is fun.

I cant forget the times we had,

The memories that we shared.
I cant forget how my heart still feels,
Or how much that i still care.


A famous poet wrote famous words, 
Words that dont even rhyme.
The poem is spoken of people in love,
And will be until the end of time.


I'd like to think my poems were famous,
But for no one else but you.
I'd like to think you'd read my poems,
But i really doubt that you do.

I still think you are a butterfly,
Beautiful and sometimes rare.
I think it still when i am here,
Alone and in my chair.


My mind races with thoughts of you,
I try to stop it where i can.
But all my thoughts keep coming back,
When we walked hand in hand.


Stars are something that we watched,
and wished upon at night.
I still remember you face in the dark,
When the falling star was bright.


You have to hold a butterfly just right,
Or else you will damage it forever.
Too loose and it will escape,
To tight and you send it to heaven.


I fell deeply in love with you,
And today i feel no regret.
Because sometimes in this simple life,
That is more than others will get.


Butterfly i will call you,
And i will do so until i die.
And no matter what you think of me,
You're always my flutterby.

Friendship

Sometimes the world can be so mean,

And a sadness will fill up your heart.

Not always in time can i be there,

But with this light its a start.

For when you're feeling lonely,

And your heart needs that special friend.

Just light a candle and know inside,

I'll be there for you until the end.

Happy 2nd Birthday

I hear its your birthday,

Happy Birthday to you.

Last year you were one,

and now you are two.

You are growing so fast,

and soon you'll be three.

So my wish to you,

is Happy Birthday from me.

Our World

There is always sunshine above the clouds, 

keeping the heavens warm.

It fights all day to calm the earth,

belated at times by a storm.

As regular as clockwork,

morning welcomes us the day.

And stays with us for keeps,

until nighttime takes it away.

This is where the moon takes over,

and sometimes lightens up the night.

With tides acting like a mirror,

starting small until full flight.

Some say it will be the next step,

one that the human hand can touch.

If only we put as much effort in,

to loving our world just as much.

Summer Sunlight Within

Sunshine in the world is there for the warmth, 
to cover and protect all we know.

It gives us a chance to be who we are, 
and stand better in the wind as it blows.

For where it cant touch there is always a light, 
a beacon that sends out energy.

For without this light we surely would fold, 
but it stretches from you to me.

You are the sunshine within my world, 
my life source when life gets me down.

No matter how dark my days can become, 
its brighter we you are around.

The things i hold dear are sometimes hard to see, 
but i hide nothing with you by my side.

I know sometimes i cover it when you are close, 
but knowing you're there i know i'm alright.

My soul hears your voice and dances and sings, 
creating a life of its own.

For if together alone we could both be, 
and around a world will have grown.

Reaching a point above the highest clouds, 
and down into the deepest oceans.

We hold each others light and warmth in our hearts, 
for that is our strongest emotion.

My Love

Here is a poem for you to keep,

For when you smile, for when you weep.

You can read aloud, or silent inside,

I wrote this with joy, I wrote it with pride.

Thinking of you helps my days move along,

But you in my arms is where you belong.

The touch of your hand means mountains to me,

Holding you close, when your sad or happy.

Together forever i know this is true,

Cuddles in the morning and at night with you.

So read this poem and think of the stars above,

And know that to me, you're always my love.